Tuesday, December 13, 2005

drama queen

Miss Wong, after suspection from JAMs for 3weeks … finally she made her appearance this week. All was okay UNTIL dismissal time, she made her way to the toilet and the next moment she was squatting on the floor outside the toilet, with her head covered. Immediately I “smell” something fishy, I know she going to start her “drama”!

Miss Wong’s drama business started 3weeks ago …
1st scene (Sun A) – she hid herself behind the curtain in the hall and REFUSED to come out despite the teachers using soft or hard approach. Then on the bus, she continues her drama by singing super loudly a song that nobody understands, she even attempt to beat and bite herself … all that she did, creates discomforts to the students around her and in the whole bus’ atmosphere.

2nd scene (following Sun) – she was found in the toilet, sitting on the floor, crying super terribly. She REFUSED to open the door … the more we soft-talk her, the more loudly she cry. And of course her favourite weapon- beat and bites herself. Finally we got the cleaner to climb and unlock the door. With us inside, she still didn’t stop and REFUSED to leave with us. So without any choice, a JAMs security went in and after struggles, he managed to carry her into the lift (actually she is not that small size and that day she was wearing super soft texture clothes so challenging to carry her).
Even inside the lift, she didn’t stop … she started to roll on the floor, bang her head against the floor and continues crying non-stop. Interesting thing is at once, she actually stopped and peep at us as we stopped coaxing or talking to her, then she continues. For her image, we didn’t want to carry her out so we got a wheelchair … it was tough carrying her onto it and keeping her there. Finally she is being carried up on the bus, still crying with her head covered. Minutes later, she was okay already.
I guess the most challenging battle is when on the bus, shortly after, she said “I love you, Teacher Yanni” … I have to bite my lip, control my anger and replied her SWEETLY, “I love you too!” Argghhhhh

3rd scene (following Sun) – I purposely observe her secretly as I know her drama will start during dismissal. First she was on the chair then she went to the floor and uses the stage as table to do her stuff then she went back to her chair again and DRAMA STARTED.
She used her jacket to cover her face and despite friends and teacher going to her, she REFUSED to open up. The next thing … she slide herself from chair to floor and begins mopping the floor – she rolled herself all over, back and forth (believe me! she rolled!), she bang her head against the floor, she threw her slippers, she threw her bag. I didn’t go to coax her because I know once she starts, it will take “decades” for her to stop. When all the students left the hall already, she is still on the floor, rolling and with her face covered with her hands. One teacher went to her, soft-talk and even prayed together with her … no use! Then finally many female teachers and male security came, soft-talk and hard-approach … no use!
A wheelchair was brought in, we had tough times getting her on chair, perhaps cause security is guy then student is girl so they are quite limited too as she will twist and turn when the security lift her up. Finally we got her on the wheelchair, she was rather calm at once- even can stop us while she put on her hair clips back nicely … then continues. And before we are on time to stop her, she slide herself down from the wheelchair to floor again. The drama continues and continues … for at least an 1 hour before she decided is enough and get up and leave. I got to bring her back personally as my bus of students has left with another teacher.

Thinking that 3weeks suspection is enough since she likes to come JAMs. But I dont think so, this week she came, she also started her drama and even worse this time - she ran out of church to the block beside and does her drama there. With all this weeks of drama, it really show one thing- she trying to attract attention! She can cry cry then stop to peep at us to see are we looking at her a not then continues, she can cry cry then stop to adjust her hair clips and even looking herself into the mirror in the hall. I visited her many times, she promised she wont do it again but each time, she breaks her promise. The 2nd Sunday where I alighted with her, to talk to the mum ... the mum asked her why she did all this ... guess her reply? - she said in chinese, "I fake fake cry one".
PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY … got to PRAY for her!

Friday, December 02, 2005

who say ??!!??!!

To some of my friends … they may think I don’t speak good English!
To some of my friends … they may think I live in “mountain” so everything to me is new!
To some of my friends … they may think I only have little knowledge about the things around and when I seem to know a little bit more, they are verrrrrrry stunned!

But to God … He doesn’t think the way my friends think about me! =)
I was reminded again by the Holy Spirit - “I must know who I am in Christ!” … others may say I am no good etc, but that’s not important! Because God won’t say and think like my friends … my God use ordinary people (like me =p) to do extraordinary thing!

What matters is not what others say/think about me but what God say about me!
I am who God say I am … not who my friends say/think I am!

Just a thought: Our mouth can be very powerful- words/comments that we made to our friend/s can either be life or death. The person who said it can meant it to be a joke but a joke must always have its limit. To me … I felt that a joke is not a joke when it cause hurt to someone!
Never carry too far with a joke, especially when your ‘joke’ goes too far to the extent of embarrassing the person you are ‘joking’ about feeling terrible cause you said it infront of many others! “Do to others what you want others to do to you”
Let’s us all be sensitive … and always be watchful/caution with the remarks we made.