Again

I fall again…
Really don’t understand why… Is it cause I went too deep?

I thought I already overcome “it” as I was ok (at least a bit) when I encountered “it” few weeks ago but recently I don’t seem to be responding well when I encountered “it” again.

How ah!?! How!?! How ah!?!
Just dislike the feeling that I feel awkward when come upfront with “it”…
Just dislike the feeling that I cannot smile genuinely when come upfront with “it”…

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