I'm amazed!

Last Sunday, I was at West Mall with Bro Szeming & Sis Karen. As we have quite some free time left cause we changed our makan venue, we decided to spend a while at West Mall as there was a function and there is many people so we thought, “Since we have time, why not go for ID-hunt!”.

Actually when I first reached West Mall earlier with my helper, something prompt me when I saw the crowd that it is a potential crowd but cause was rushing to meet up my students so didn’t walk around. But thank God after the lunch, we still managed to go around the function area.

3 of us walked through the lobby, with our eyes wide opened. We walked to the end and nothing happened. Just when Bro Szeming said, “I never go to basement before, lets go down and take a look!”. That point of time, cause we already finished walking the entire lobby so I was thinking to myself, “Lets go! We already walked the entire lobby so I don’t think we will meet any ID”.

The moment we reached basement, Bro Szeming spotted 1 ID!!!! And we followed on and at the right timing, Bro Szeming & Sis Karen approached them and guess what, they are keen to come JAMs & they stay Bukit Batok (area I’m in charged of). Praise God!

I’m amazed, really amazed! =)

That particular Sunday, we supposed to have bowling games for my bus’ higher students. Is also a chance for them to invite their non-christian friends along. The night before I called up my higher students to ask whether they got any friends, their reply is either *don’t have* or *im working until 1am* or most disappointing one- *don’t know*. So looking at the “situation”, I decided to postpone the bowling games till I get to talk to them properly regarding inviting friends those kinds.

I’m amazed! =)
That morning to JAMs service, I was on the way to fetch this high student, I was told that her house there, including her will have 3 people boarding the bus. After checking it out, is actually 2 new friends who are with her! After JAMs service, as promised earlier, my helper and I went lunch with my bus’ higher students. During then, 2 more backslider came (my higher students invited them).

Wowowow! I’m amazed! =)
I truly believe that… just like how God used all the workers in JAMs Church, God can also use the students in JAMs to make a difference! They will shine in their workplace & school. And also be the ones that God used to bring revival & breakthrough!

iNtErNatIOnAl sChOoL??

3 weeks in school has just past! Counting down to 7 more weeks! Hahaha!

Been rather interesting till now- just this new term, we have few new students who came and join us.
We have a boy from Taiwan, a boy from Philippines, a boy from Korea and a boy from Balangesh!

Communicating in Chinese with the Taiwan boy is not that difficult. One occasion:
Cher Yanni in English: Child T, sit properly!
Child T in Chinese: What is that?
Cher Yanni in Chinese: That’s mean to sit properly!
Child T in Chinese: Sit properly is what dong dong ar?

But to communicate with the pure Korea boy is super challenging. He has no foundation in English, can only speak and listen to very very basic English. His first day of school, I greeted him in Korean (the only thing I know how to say in Korean), he turned to another teacher and pointed at me and said, “Korean teacher?”. Haha! The child’s very common sign when he don’t understand what we say is to put his finger near his ear and gave us a “huh” look! =)

PAP- not only a multi racial school but also a multi country school. Haha!
Malay! Tamil! Singlish! Broken English! La-Lei-Lo Engish & La-Lei-Lo Chinese… all must know a little!

32!!!

raise the Lord! Last weekend, my bus W5 has a breakthrough attendance on a normal weekly service!
*drum rollsssssssss* W5 hit 32!

32… w5 ever achieved during big day like Easter or Christmas BUT for a normal weekly service, this is the FIRST FIRST time!

Of course, the credit doesn’t belong to me. It totally belongs to JESUS! =)
Still remember the day before Sunday JAMs, I am still worrying for my bus attendance. Just at that particular service, when Pst Tan is ministering to the cell leaders towards the last part of service, he mentioned “lean on God, don’t lean on our own strength/ability, that is when we will become weary”. That is when I was reminded and made the decision to stop worrying and lean on and trust Him! And when Im back, I pray to lift up everything to Him!

Is reallllllllllly soooooooooo amazing when on the actual day, all my core students came (usually there will be few who can’t make it) and I got 2 new students who came! And by His grace, W5 hit 32! I myself can’t believe it either, didn’t expect attendance to shoot so fast cause past week weeks has been hovering between 24-25 (can’t cross that 25 mark). I really believe is God! I really don’t know how to describe but truly believe this time is really God who made it happened!

The feeling of seeing the bus packed is so great! =)
Thank God for the safety too… imagine 32 people on a 20-seater bus! Haha!
2-seaters, I squeezed in 3 students.
4-seaters, I squeezed in 7 students.
On the bus engine (beside driver), I got 2 students to sit there.

NOW- the most important thing is to pray for retention that it will not be a one-week thing that w5 experienced but is going to be every week which leads to MULTIPLICATION. Amen! And of course to pray for greater capacity to contain the growth and capacity to watch over all the students under my care!

LEAN ON HIM!

gOOd!

5 Days 4 Nights… spent at Bangkok! =)
More than just the shoppingsSsSsSsS and makaningSsSsSsS… it had been a good experience for me to see the life/people at Bangkok.

I’m truly amazed by their shopping centre’s foodcourt! We’re welcomed by the friendly staffs and of course- the grand-ness of the place. It surely doesn’t look like foodcourt in Singapore, by the grandness you will thought you are inside a restaurant instead (check it out at my webshots once the photos is uploaded).
After purchasing food at the food counter, I made my way to my seats and before I even reached… one of the waitress came to me and took my tray and helped me laid out the bowls on my table! Wowowow… I’m truly amazed by the service provided at the foodcourt! They actually have waiters and waitress positioned everywhere in the foodcourt, all ready to serve the customers.

Not only at the foodcourt… the Thai peopled we met along the way, at the restaurant, at the shops, at our hotel etc… are all very friendly and approachable. =)

On the very last day, together with Bro Jinzhi & Sis Winnie, we decided to walk back from MBK to our hotel after a full feast of dinner. Looking at the map, we saw this church and so decided to make the turn there. Our intention is actually only to see the building but amazingly, we saw this 2 man inside office- with a simple smile from us, they came out and “entertain” us by bringing us around to see their main halls. Divine timing! That particular day is their once-a-week prayer meeting day so we decided to sit in since we have no plan for that night.

Entire service was in Thai- praise and worship, preaching, testimony and prayer meeting. Though I don’t understand what they said/preached but could really feel the presence of God during worship. Not many members there, guess just slightly more than 10 including the musicians but I’m amazed by their simple love and faith for God. We are treated like their VIPs, they are truly good hosts… we are greatly welcomed by the members! Before we left, we exchanged emails and took photos with them (check it out when is uploaded).

To our surprise… the 2 man who “entertain” us at the beginning was actually the senior pastors of the church! We are shocked! Senior pastors bringing 3 of us around the hall. I’m amazed by their hospitality. Even one of the ladies who has been a great host to us and who also interpreted for us during the service was also one of the pastor there. Wowowowow!

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Just couldn’t understand these 2 students from my bus- don’t know is because they don’t understand what my helper and I said to them? Not teachable? Or just trying to test our patience?

The famous Miss W- unlike other JAMs students who need name tag for identity and security purpose, Miss W don’t need cause EVERYONE know her, even church cleaner know her well. Just make a trip down to JAMs svc and she will leave a DEEP impression. Haha! =)

She can be very well-behaved in bus, usually “entertained” by the Hokkien songs requested by her to driver. Despite my helper and I can tell her many times and show her the rewards (this usually catches her FULL attention) but on the condition that she behaves herself all the way to church, in church and back home.
She agreed BUT the moment the lift door opened, she will automatic squat down and refuses to go in hall. Even if you managed to get her in, it will only be for that 10mins then either she will walk out on her own or she will be brought out by me cause she misbehave by either physically hurting friends, opening friends/teachers’ bag, or disturb service by her shouting.

After checking with her mum that she is not like that (sooooooo verrrrrrry desperate for food) at home and in school, only in church. Guess last time we used to give in to her too much, for food and stuffs and now to her, so long she come church she got food, so long she throw tantrum at lift lobby she be serve with food. Together with my helper, we made a decision that we will not give in to her anymore and got to start “training” her. If she want stay outside hall, by all means but we got to make sure she is not entertain by any food. Don’t know how long but surely this will take very long before we can get her bad “habit” out. Got to keep keeping her in prayers too!

Actually even when she is outside at lift lobby, she won’t be that well-behave either. Most of the time, she will entertain herself by “activity”. Here are some she did before:

* pushed/hit a female zone helper… instead of feeling bad, she laughed her way through
* grabbed a teacher’s spectacles, and refused to let go
* snatched food that comes her way
* lie full flat on the floor
* chit chat with cleaners & JAMs security… most of the time asking about food
* took off shoes and attempt to throw at teacher
* aim for dustbin… waiting for people to throw food in

Just last week, she did something which really makes my heart break for her- I was with her majority of the time at the lift lobby. She was already not ok at the start- screaming and shouting (as she know she wont get any sweets/rewards when she return). At this particular moment, she pushed down the dustbin and digs out stuffs from there- an empty sweet box & an empty mineral bottle before the dustbin was brought away by the security. That scene was terrible… I didn’t do anything but I just stood there helplessly. I just think to myself… is she really that hungry?

rain rain go away!

Just yesterday, together with some teachers, we brought some of our JAMs students out to Sentosa. Everything went off well- the program we planned went on smoothly. At the end of the day, both the students and we teachers had fun. We even tried the new Skyrides (something like cable car except there is no 4 walls around you. You get to sit side by side with your friends on kind of like a metal bench, with just a chain locked infront of you and up up up you go. But of course the height from the ground is not as high as cable car's). Though scary at first but it was good experience. =)

The most AMAZING thing to me that I can’t stop talking about it throughout the day --- the weather! For the past few days it had been raining, even on Sunday it was raining cats and dogs so is rather worrying what if it rain on Monday then everything we plan for the students to have fun will go into waste BUT on Monday, it wasnt raining! We didn’t need umbrella to shelter us from rain but think we need it to shelter us from the hot sun. At Sentosa, though may be sweating badly by the burning hot sun but secretly am enjoying every moment of it. Hahahahahaha!

That morning when I woke up, I can’t help but to keep looking out of the window many times, to check out the clouds… just when I was reminded “you have prayed… don’t doubt! Just believe!” and from then, I didn’t look out or think about the "what if". And true indeed, God answered all our prayersssssss- by giving us a good weather!

It gets even more interesting when I saw that this afternoon it was raining… HAHAHAHAHAHA! God is good ALL the time… ALL the time God is good! =) Thank you Jesus!

Special thanks to:
TEACHER EENA, TEACHER HENSA, TEACHER HUIMIN, TEACHER KAREN, TEACHER SIMON & TEACHER FRIEND! =)

cHiLdReN's TaLk IV...

interesting incidents just before school holiday... =)

sCeNe #1
*Child N found a bottle on the shelve*
Child N: this Child X one
Cher Yanni: No… you should say, “this X’s bottle!”
Child N: *innocent look* this X’s bottle one!
Cher Yanni: flipped

sCeNe #2
Cher Yanni: Child B, comes here!
Child B: *came happily*
Cher Yanni: *rubbing her stomach* Child B, what did you eat, how come your here so big?
Child B: *smile and think*
Cher Yanni: Come! Tell me, what is inside?
Child B: fish and soup!
Cher Yanni: Woooo… only fish and soup?
Child B: Yes… fish and soup!
Cher Yanni: No lahz! Cant be… I think inside got dinosaur! *knowing Child B is crazy for dinosaur*
Child B: No… only fish and soup!
Cher Yanni: I know already! You eat elephant, that’s why your stomach like that right?
Child B: No… mummy never cooks elephant

sCeNe #3
Cher Yanni: S! Why you so handsome?
S (the only child Cher Yanni will show favoritism): *smile shyly*
Cher Yanni: S! Why you so handsome?
S: *smile shyly, covering his face*
Cher Yanni, Why, S?!
S: like that!
Cher Yanni: is daddy handsome?
S: No! *smile shyly*
Cher Yanni: Is S handsome?
S: *nodded with a shyly smile* Yes!
Cher Yanni: Why handsome?
S: like that!
Cher Yanni: Why?
S: just like that
Cher: =)

sCeNe #4
*during assembly time*
Child B went over to sit on the chair when ALL children were standing
Cher Yanni: Child B! You got to stand up now! Is assembly time!
Child B: *ignore what I said*
Cher Yanni: Come on, Child B! You got to stand up now!
Cher B: No! I battery low!
Cher Yanni: *flipped flipped*

Xie Xie Ni Men

As I get “younger and younger”… I don’t really feel like wanting to have a grand bdae celebration but just a simple meal with my friends will be great. But most of all is the smses/calls made by my friends to send their greeting… is AWESOME to know my friends still remember my birthday.

(ps: if you are reading this blog and you realized you haven’t send your greeting yet… is not too late cause Yanni’s birthday celebration is one month so flood in your smses/calls. Haha!)

Shall I propose a toast to my beloved kakis!
Thanks guys for everything… for your time & for your money! I’m shocked to receive 2 presents from you guys… hope you all didn’t spent much on me. Really appreciate and will surely answer your prayers soon by “wearing” the blessing real soon. =)

Shall I also propose a toast to my great ZS Joli!
Thank you for the most-filing lunch at Jack’s Place! Will also make sure I “wear” your blessings too! =)

Another toast to my cell group JM1 & JM2!
Thank you for the blessing! Truly now I will WATCH and pray! =)

My beloved w5!
Thank you for the little presents & also the self-service to celebrate my bdae on bus. I’m shocked when my students took out the cake and shouted 1 2 3 and got everyone to sing together. Cause all along is we teachers who do it but that day, I was left doing busing alone so I cant possible sing to myself, wasn’t prepare to do it also. But think my helper “rehearse” with them beforehand.

My helper Xiaoying!
Thank you for the cake! That realllllly surprised me cause didn’t expect anything on bus so all that really shocked me.

My always-generous Yanjie!
Thank you for blessing me with the 2 books! Will read and write you a book preview? Haha… just kidding! Not forgetting the $xxx voucher… is more than enough!

Shihui & Yajing!
Thanks for taking out your time to come for the dinner at GlassHouse! Be blessed as you blessed!

Sis Iris & Chris!
Your presence really made a difference! Thanks for coming despite the late hour!

surprise-less BDAE adventure...

On my actual bdae, I met up with my kakis at GlassHouse for dinner.
My “surprises revealed adventure” started when KN asked me what time SH is coming. I was shocked… you mean SH is coming?! Then when I turned to look at JZ and SM, there was a unnatural look on their face like “oh no! surprise burst!”. =p

Just when I was told that not many will turn up for my birthday dinner by JZ… from the staff at GlassHouse, I overheard that actually our seats has been reserved beforehand and from not many will turn up for dinner, I heard the staff telling SM, “Ok, table for 10 right.” Hahaha… I thought not many will turn up for dinner.

As we were waiting for the rest, I received a sms from CQ that she will be late for dinner. Wowow, I wasn’t told that CQ is coming, was only told that SH came on behalf of all. Just when SH reached, she told me about YJ who is on her way and I was again shocked that “YJ is coming too!”. When I told JZ about CQ and YJ, he got a ...... look! muahahaha!
Other than them, I also happened to know other (YJ & YY) who also being invited but couldnt make it. Think all this, the "organiser/s" for my bdae meant it to be a surprise for me. Heehee! =)

The dinner went off well… except for an embarrassing moment where I am being sabo, not by my own kakis but by the staff of Fish & Co. as I failed to accomplish their task to blow off my candles on my cake on the table while standing on the chair without bending my body/head. I was asked to dance! When I failed to do it, I was asked to “invite” someone from other table to dance with and it must be a guy. It was really a moment of embarrassment… (hello! I am 22 years young! not keen on all this already). I rather be splashed with flour or water or powder! =)

The night was completed when Sis Iris and Chris came after their cell group meeting. Though only fellowship for a while but was a fruitful time. Was kandong that Sis Iris and Chris took the extra mile and came met me up despite of the late hour.

My “surprise-less adventure” didn’t end just like that… on Sunday before service, JL turned to me:
JL: Why you didn’t wear your skirt and jacket today?
Me: Huh?! What jacket?
JL: They (kakis) brought you a jacket right?
Me: Hmmm… don’t have. Just a shirt ar!
JL: Oh… they got buy you a jacket also
Me: Hmmm… don’t have lehz
JL: Maybe later they will give you
Me: Oh.. … … … OK!

Hahahah… a meant-to-be surprise from my kakis to give me my 2nd present was again revealed so when my kakis passed me the present, before I even open it, I already knew it was a jacket.

Still I want to thank ALL for making my birthday a interesting, great & memorable one!

pArT 2...

What made all my tiredness on Sunday all worth it? =)

After sending all students back, I was at West Mall with my JAMs friends. We saw this big crowd queuing to get free bottled coke so we decided to join them too… so interesting.

While Miss Tang & I was queuing, Mr Sia & Mr Cher went to “check out” this boy who was with his father as he looked like special student as Mr Cher already spotted him before we arrive. After we’re done with our freebies, we went over to join them and soon, approached the father & the son. Right! This boy used to study in a Special School and the rejoicing part for me is… they stayed at Bukit Batok! (Hahaha… the area I’m incharge). Just when I was talking to the father & son with the teachers around me… Miss Tang spotted another girl who looked special too. When I got hold of the particulars of the first contact we saw, I went over to approach the girl who was with her mum with Miss Tang… Right again! She is currently studying in a Special School and they stayed Bukit Batok too!!!!

Amazing right?! =) Praise God! Praise God! Just in like 10minutes… we met 2 contacts! And these 2 contacts are actually very potential & have given their word to come. Best of all is that their parents are actually very opened. The girl’s mum actually was so “quick” that on the spot she confirms her daughter’s attendance for the following JAMs service with me. When I asked for her number for the first time, she was like “no need lahz! Want come now say already… no need so troublesome! Will let her come one!” And I was like “wowowowow!”

Thus I ended my day with great JOY & not the “presents of tiredness” from Miss W & Mr B. =)

so "happening"

Sat JAMs- special appearance by Mr Sato who came with great expectancy as he can only come once a month. Without any obstacles, he freely made his way to the sound system and sat down on the floor. Overall he was ok, just that at times he will: attempt to bend his tape, stand up and jump for no reason, give painful massage on female teachers’ hands & suddenly shout to give you a heart attack.
One rather funny incident I remembered was Mr Sato knocked on a teacher while trying to stand up (just imagine his size! a gentle knock from him made a BIG difference), 2 male teachers came and like trying to “grab” and stopped him, then our half-Japanese boy shouted “Help! Help!” in Chinese. And throughout whenever he did something wrong like making a chip on the headset peeled off, he will just gave us a cheeky & innocent smile which made it hard for us to scold him.

Sun JAMs- “drained” is the word I’ll used to describe after that particular day of serving.
Miss W- due to her past few months’ behavior and attitude, she has been named “Ah Lian”.

Actions that she is famous of:
. freely come in/freely go out of the hall
. if she is outside, she walk/squat freely whenever she want at the lift lobby
. if she is in the hall, she will sit at her secret corner and munch her tibits
. walk like a supervisor to the stage area and look for food and if there is food, she will freely grabbed and walk to her corner to eat
. if we stop her from taking the food, she will lie on the floor to show you her ‘power’
. if she is being spotted/stopped she will freely shout
. open teachers’ and friends’ bags freely
. grabbed people’s food to eat (warning! she is quick, very quick!)
. (WORSE OF ALL) don’t know is it she is too hungry… her habit/lifestyle/hobby is to EAT. So bad to the extent that food on the floor or even in the dustbin, she will pick it up and eat. (trust me! I am not exaggerating)

That particular Sunday, she is like Queen of the Queens… as usual she didn’t want to go in to the hall and she happily squat at the lift lobby and don’t know from where, she was “served” with sweet and cake which I STRONGLY am not happy cause it will only made her think that “is good to stay outside of the hall cause I will be provided with food”. And when finally she decided to go in, she went around to open 2 teachers’ bag to take their sweet and bread to eat then when she was asked to sit on the chair, she decided to greet the people around them by pushing/beating. Not only that, on the bus back home, she beat hardly on the head/pull the hairs of the friendS sitting infront.

Seriously I really don’t know what to do with her… she is really getting out of control. Soft & hard approach just doesn’t seem to work. Her ‘addiction’ for food is really so bad that sometime I wonder her purpose of coming to church. We tried using food as reinforcement but no use cause she is not able to understand that she will get her reward of food only if she is good. She want food means she want food NOW and if we give it to her, once she finish eating she will forget all that she promised us and start her “business” again.

Mr B- famous of grabbing (realllllly grab) male teachers’ hands real tightly. That particular Sunday he was extra full of strength… he grabbed a male zone helper at the lift lobby, our service guitarist & our security head. Once he grabbed, is very difficult to ask him to let go… most of the time when he grabbed… I was/got to be there to pull him away so physically is really very tiring.

Throughout the service, I think my time was spent with Miss W & Mr B… on one side of the hall, I need to watch Miss W as she kept opening teachers’ bag and disturbing her friend & on the other side, I need to grab Mr B back to his seat as he kept walking toward the stage. The workers on Sunday JAMs is really not many… that’s why I got to self-service! So bad that when Mr B is in the toilet taking his own sweet time, I just felt like dashing in to get him out or even bringing a big boy like him to female toilet cause there wasn’t any male teacher around who I can asked to help.

So at the end of the day, during returning trip when Miss W is asleep (FINALLY!) and Mr B who usually ok on bus… I just sat on the chair, too tired to move or talk. “SURRENDER” was written on my forehead… physically surrender to Mr B & mentally surrender to Miss W. =(

*to be continued… testimony!*
(what made all the day’s tiredness worth it)

tiring~~~~~

Last week had been a longgggggg & tiring week. In just one week, I got to help out in the walkabout for 2 days (cause my school’s “big boss” is one of the Candidate for Election 2006).

1^st day- togther with other volunteers, I went around to 4 HDB flats, going to every single floor to knock on nearly every single house. In a block, there can be like 4 stairs-linkway so we got to take lift up to the highest then one floor one floor go down then again took lift up to the highest floor and take the 2nd linkway down and again and again again! It was still fun when I walked down the stairs of the first block but when it come to third block, could feel the tiredness of the feet already. And the most tiring part is after walking for non-stop for like 3hours, I still got to head back to school to teach for 4hours. Toward the last few hours, basically is like… Teacher Yanni: “Children, do something to self entertain yourself k.”

2^nd day- last minute was called to help distribute flyers to terrace houses. Was at the branch waiting for the flyers to come from 2pm then was told there was a delay and flyers will only come at 430pm. Shortly after, was again told that printing machine jam so flyers will only come at 630pm. *flipped*
Was back again at 630pm… waited and waited to like 7pm then the flyers came. Off we go in groups to different areas of terrace houses we are assigned to. “Bark! Bark!” was the welcome lines we received whenever we reach a terrance house. We were extra cautious cause we 're told there was a lady who was injured that morning while "throwing" the flyer over the gate as the dog jumped up and bite her finger.

That particular week also wasn’t a good week for me in school… children extra “active” and extra “not obedient”. In this one particular active class (where almost ALL children are active)… I actually lost my cool (somehow it do made a difference in keeping them quiet but only for like 10mins before they are back to square one). After the incident, I do felt bad about it. The next day feel like I went to school with a “heavy heart & heavy legs”. Really got to pray for greater patience and love towards the children in school… especially towards this particular class of children.

JAMs EaStEr SuPeRhErO

Jesus… my SuperHero!
Jesus… my star!
Jesus… my best friend!

JAMs Easter SuperHero… successful!

This Easter- I am one of the games masters with Santhi. Though our discussion & preparation is rather last minute but thank God on the actual day, everything turned out well. To be able to work with Santhi… I would say there is certain stress as she is a person of excellence but of course the opportunity to learn from her is great and worth it too. =)

My beloved W5- past few weeks’ attendance had been like 21, 22, 23… it always been my prayer to be able to cross that mark of 25 on a usual JAMs weekend!

So this big day… together with my ZS, we targeted to have 25.
(to my ZS, 25 is no problem cause W5 has ever hit 38 on a big day).

Indeed God can do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us (Eph. 3:20) - this Easter, W5’s attendance is… … … … *drum rolls* … … … … … … 33!

Praise the Lord! All glory belongs to Him! =)

Is very amazing how God does it- from my bus, I actually have many super irregulars students (those who sometimes come sometimes don’t come) who came. And I have two backsliders who came too, no words could describe the joy of seeing them back again… they actually backslided yearssssssss ago and for me to be in contact with them again and they came for Easter, is indeed God’s power. As they are very high and working, they said they are willing to come JAMs service if the weekend they are not working. Not forgetting my usual core students… ALL of them came!

Haha! To think about it… it feels great when my helpers who did fetching for me told me that they actually squeezed in 29 students and 2 teachers in a 20seaters bus! But of course got to really thank God no traffic police, if not based on what the driver said… each passenger after the 20^th, got to pay $100. =)

Right now after the big day, what is the challenge for me?
- to contain the growth of W5 (got to pray that God will enlarge my capacity). And really pray & believe that W5’s attendance will not drop down back to below 25 again.

Really pray this breakthrough will not be one-time bang event. 33 for Easter big day, what will be the attendance for W5 the week after big day?

Eugene's Jesus

*the class of children was doing work… I was too tired to move so just sat there with them to keep watch. Just when Eugene (always very chatty) started saying “sell group” “cell group” and then our interesting conversation started*

Cher: Eugene, so who is Jesus?
Eugene: Say Say… Jesus Christ!
Cher: Who is Jesus Christ?
E: Jesus Christ is Jesus Christ. Understand?
Cher: Where is Jesus Christ?
E: Say Say Say… Heaven!
Cher: Where did Jesus Christ die?
E: Cross!
Cher: Why Jesus Christ die on the cross?
E: Help people… Jesus like kids! When the balloon fly, Jesus catch the balloon. Jesus like Vincent (his brother) and Eugene!
Cher: Have you see Jesus before?
E: Jesus… don’t have. Jesus must have bible.
Cher: What is bible?
E: Bible is from Jesus. Bible is for everyone.

Cher: You was saying about cell group just now. What is cell group?
E: American service!
Cher: What is American service?
E: People sick but I am not sick. Church and Jesus help me. Bible is good for you to read.
Cher: So what is cell group?
E: Cell group is people read bible then got one man talk talk talk
Cher: Hahahaha!
E: We are all like sheep cause Jesus no.1, we all no.2! Christmas Day, Jesus come and jingle bell.
Cher: Is Jesus handsome?
E: Yes! When Jesus is small, you can see. When Jesus big, you cant see him.

*knowing that I am copying down our conversation*

E: Write Write! Jesus very important!
Cher: Amen!
E: Amen!

1st time...

On our weekly duty roaster, when I see my name for offering segment during JAMs service, it seem ok to me now (not so scary like the 1^st time when I was NERVOUS, very NERVOUS).

I did cheer before… I acted before I did announcement before… I did games before BUT to preach the Word of God during JAMs service I NEVER and I never expect I will ever.

Thank God for the faith but most of all, want to thank God for His Word. For me, the most most challenging is not how to preach but what to preach. Thank God for a Word in season… remember there was once continually for 3weeks I got to do offering- thank God never once “run out” of what to preach or ideas to illustrate. I came to this conclusion: with Word from God, I’m able to stand on stage confidently to preach even without my “script”. =)

BUT BUT BUT BUT just last week… I was rather “happy” when I didn’t see my name for segment for JAMs (not “backsliding” but really a week off to be not so stress). Just when I strolled down the list on my computer… I saw “Offering: Yanni” under the column for JM1 Cell Group Meeting!

*flipped flipped* I COULDN’T BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!

I GOT TO PREACH DURING CELL GROUP MEETING! NOT TO JAMS STUDENTS BUT TO FELLOW CELL GROUP MEMBERS who among them can be those senior than me! Arggghhhhhhhhhh!

I prayed… asking God to show me what He wants me to share with His people regarding giving & what can I share to challenge His people to give

My very 1st cell group offering message:

Deut 28:1 ““Now it shall come to pass, if you diligently obey the voice of the LORD your God, to observe carefully all His commandments which I command you today, that the LORD your God will set you high and above all nations of the earth.”

Deut 28:2 “And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you, because you obey the voice of the LORD your God.”

Deut 29:3 – Deut 29:13 … ALL the blessing God promised us but on one condition and that is when we obey His Voice.

“Stressfress” was written on my face when I ended the offering prayer. Actually even on the very last few hours I was still hesitating whether should I sms my cgl saying, “Can I don’t do offering later?” cause the thought of me “preaching” to my cg members just make me fearful. But thank God it turned out well, got good feedback for my offering message too. Really thank God thank God thank God thank God thank God!

once bitten twice shy?

*during dismissal*
“Goodbye Teacher Yanni… Goodbye Friends!”

“That’s fast! Child S is at the playground… Wow enjoying her biscuit some more!” I thought to myself as I wait at the door with the rest of the children,

“Hmm… something is not right! Child S’ mother is not on her left, Child S’ brother is not on her right, Child S’ grandmother is nowhere to be seen too!” I thought.

“OH NO! Without me knowing, she walked over to the playground on her own, despite her guardian hasn’t come yet!”

“VOLCANO ERUPTING” was written on my face! I immediately walked to the playground, without any questioning… I grabbed her hand and brought her back to classroom, threw away the biscuit she was eating and started my scolding! Guess where did she got the biscuit... she asked it from a stranger (her friend's mum) by the side.

I scold… I scold… I scold… I SCOLD and SCOLD… *Child S cried*
*believe me… at the point, I was realllllllllly very angry! The thought of “what if” she is lost just frightened me!

Not only did I just scold, I also did reason with her- telling her the danger of her going/being alone. So when the mum came, I tried to tell the mum what happened as she was on a important call but she did replied me- “Yes! I understand… she naughty!”

After that… I was talking to one of the auntie who knew what had happened, she made a statement:
”Children like them… maybe they will only learn after something really happened”

But I myself think that… that is only 1% true because afterall they are children, young children. We really cant afford to let ‘one’ thing happened to make them learn their lesson.

*Just like- the day before this incident, our school actually received a call from the police, to check on our 2 K2s children- trying to ask how they were being dismissed, as their form of going back are by school bus. Shortly after, we knew that both of them was being send up to bus from school and by school bus, they were sent back home but they were lost when their parents brought them out to playground and without the parents who was busy chit chatting knowing, this 2 children wander off and get lost in a unfamiliar place. But thank God they were found not long after by one of their mum’s friend.

Conversation we had with one of the child who came back to school the following day:

Chers: So, Child B, what happened yesterday?
Child B: *smile shyly*
Chers: What happened to you and Child P (another child who was lost)?
Child B: We go playground… then we walked… and walked
Chers: Then you cant find your mummy already?
Child B: Yes…
Chers: Then what happened?
Child B: Then… I very tired… so I sit down… at bus-stop
Chers: Then what about Child P? She was not with you?
Child B: I don’t know
Chers: Oh… then after that?
Child B: Then… my uncle sees me… he carries me to police station. Police station there, I saw Child P.
Chers: *flipped*
Child B: I hug my… mummy
Chers: Did your mummy scold you?
Child B: No… she talks to me only… she said next time cannot do it again
Chers: So are you afraid, want to anyhow walk away from mummy again?
Child B: No…
Chers: Then why Child P never comes to school today?
Child B: Think… she is very scare… so never come

*ALL things are possible*

"today the title of my message *Living out God's best*" said my CGL

“oh… this title sound familiar, think heard before already” me thought to myself

*BANG* something hit me!

“during my QT yesterday… didn’t I tell God that if He is willing, to give me the peace through His Word or His presence during cg/service?”

*listen doubly hard to the Word of God*

“All things are possible” … is a very “common” verse in the bible. I’m very sure all of us know this verse verrrrry well… can even read it the other way round. For myself too… each time I heard this verse, it will always be a “Amen!” reply from me. But during cg’s ministering time, when my CGL is praying… for the 1^st time! 1^st time I wept when I heard my CGL saying, “all things are possible”,

At the end of the day… though somehow the sermon didn’t really show the direction God want me to take, the path God want me to go… but this is a very good encouragement and assurance that truly with God “ALL things are possible!”

THANK YOU JESUS! =)

Qualification I don’t have… Confidence level going down and down… Situation around me don’t seem positive BUT I just want to trust God with whatever I have. Been telling myself this few days, “ALL things work out good for those who love Him”… just got to trust God that He is in control. =)

whatever little u have will become much when placed in God's hands...

HmMmMmMm....

Just last week, I went to visit one JAMs student, E (not from my bus). My helper, Xiaoying who been to his house before was sharing with me the few times she been there with E’s Bus Captain (BC), they seldom meet the mother at home and the BC ever shared that is better without the mum, not so “scary”. Jokingly, I told Xiaoying: “Hmm… maybe today special, I come mahz, so maybe the mum will be at home!”

We walked past a living room, saw through window this lady sitting on sofa watching tv, her eyes was starring BIG at us, “unfriendly” was written on her face. We reached the doorstep, looked at the unit number & double check on our address list, “OH NO! This is the house of E… and that must be E’s mother! “Aiyoyoyo, today really special ar!”. We struggled a while before we knocked on the door by faith…

“YES?!” … said the mum (unfriendly face still)
“Hi… we’re looking for E and S (E’s sister).”
"WHO ARE YOU?” … said the mum (currently no smile on face)
“We are their church teachers from JAMs” … (forcing a smile on our face, hiding our “fear”)
“THEY ARE PREPARING TO SLEEP ALREADY!” … said the mum (no sign of smile appearing)
“Oh… they usually sleep early?” … (Yanni and Xiaoying knowing the time is only 8pm!)
”YES! NEXT TIME PLS COME EARLIER” … said the mum (face constant)
“Oh okies! But is it possible we see them for a short while?”
“NO! THEY ARE PREPARING TO SLEEP ALREADY” … said the mum
“Oh okok… then can you help us passed this to them and let them know we came”
“OK!” … the mum took it reluctantly
“Thank you! Sorry to disturb you!”

Just when we walked past the living room, we saw E through the window beside- my heart break when I saw his position! Not on bed preparing to sleep, not on table doing work BUT sitting on a chair peeping through his room door. Next moment I heard the mum shouting “E, KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT!” I guess at the end of the day, E wasn’t preparing to sleep, the mum purposely kept E in his room and despite how much E wants to come out to see who came, he was totally not allowed to.

Xiaoying and I quietly called for him to the window and talked to him… just for a short while and quietly too cause we don’t want the mum to hear and come and scold him. How I wish we could stay longer to talk to him and I’m sure he hopes us to too cause I could see his excitement when he see us but to avoid any scoldings from the mum, we didn’t. But thank God we still get to see him though, I left him by telling him to always love his mother no matter what. Really pray our that short visit to him at the point of time will really cheer him up.

Some background- E the only son, position #2 among sibling. Mum don’t like E, totally don’t like! The mum always scold E and find faults with him (really very bad one). Mum is a Catholic, to her- having E (special child) is a curse, a punishment. How I wish I can go to his mum, give her one good shake to wake her up... if to her, E is a punishment then I dont know what other parents will feel when their child's intellectual condition is not so good like E. To me, the most saddest part is- E himself know that the mum dont like him.

The reason why I blog this visit down is really cause this “hit” me a lot- after that visit to E's house, my heart really went out for him, E kept coming to my mind! That Sat when I went JAMs, I made it a effort just to say HI to him. When I was praying for him, I was reminded about one thing for sure- though E's mum's love to him change and is not strong, but God's love for E will never never never ever change!

Jesus for All Minds! =)

*MC*

I was down with fever and flu last week… was given 2days MC to rest REST rest REST. Is a great feeling to be off from school for 2days- freedom from my “little angels”.

Some responses from the children when they see me back in school on Monday:

Child: Teacher Yanni, why you yesterday never come?
Cher Yanni: Of course! Yesterday was Sunday, of course I never come!
*repeated many times in a day… cause many children asked when they see me*

Child S: Never come, go hospital
Cher Yanni: Who go hospital?
Child S: Teacher Yanni!
Cher Yanni: Why Teacher Yanni go hospital?
Child S: Teacher Yanni got fever!
Cher Yanni: HmMmMmMmM...

Cher Yanni: Children, so who teach you when Teacher Yanni never come?
Class of Children: Teacher Grace!
Cher Yanni: So what did Teacher Grace teach?
Class of Children: Patterning!
Cher Yanni: Good right?! So Teacher Yanni should often don’t come right… you all happy when Teacher Yanni never come?
Class of Children: Yes!
Cher Yanni: What?! You all happy when Teacher Yanni never come?
Class of Children: No!
Cher Yanni: So is yes or no? When Teacher Yanni never come, you all very happy?
Class of Children: No… … …!
*Child G shouted… “Yes!” with a cheeky smile on his face*

~ Is rather interesting and sweet that after 2days of MIA from school… the children do pay special attention to it. And when they see me back in action again, they will use their own special way to show their concern.

WoOoOoOoOoOo!

“Where is the office?” was asked by a man from the window.
Minutes later, my principal walked in to my class, “Be careful when you dismiss the children later, there is a man with revolver around this area! A Chinese man dress in black”

*remained calm*
But my eyes was constantly looking out of the window… can be quite scary where there was once this old man was looking into my class for quite long.

Shortly after, at the carpark behind our school… we could see police cars, even CIDs around! Guess if you had watched the news, you roughly know what’s happening.

The “incident” happened two blocks away from my school so afterall, we were not that affected. My colleagues and I was like asking “what if the media will to come to our school and interview us what we been doing to safe-guard the children in our school”… maybe we will tell them, “Nothing much! But we’re making full use of the police cars around to 'tell' our very active children that police cars & policeman all around so cannot be naughty if not they will come and catch you all". Ooooooops!

This is only the fun side and naughty sides of us teachers… but seriously thank God for protection over our school and now is to pray that the “naughty man” will be caught as soon as possible!

cHiLdReN's TaLk III

sCeNe #1
*Child S decided to be very “helpful” and helped Child R take her water-bottle and without grabbing it properly, the bottle full of water dropped and landed terribly on Teacher Yanni’s toes!*

Cher Yanni: Ouch… … … … … … !!!!
Child S: *with a innocent look, look up to Cher Yanni*
Cher Yanni: Child S… … … … you hurt my toes!
Child S: *no response*
Cher Yanni: *endure the pain and walk… but it was quite hurtful so took Child S to one side*
Cher Yanni: Child S, next time can you please take your own water-bottle. Your friend R will take on her own.
Child S: Yes!
Cher Yanni: Now you see you hurt my toes!
Child S: Because you never wear close shoes!
Cher Yanni: *state of shock* What?!
Child S: You see my shoes, I wear close shoes.
Cher Yanni: So how now?
Child S: You go buy another leg
Cher Yanni: *shocked by her response so decided to play along with her* But I don’t have money
Child S: My … brother … My … grandmother! My … grandmother … have … many … dollars
Cher Yanni: Ok! So you will ask your grandmother to buy me one leg
Child S: Yes

sCeNe #2
*after clearing up, children are asked to sit on the floor in their groups*
Cher Yanni: Children, those who keep the toys already, I want you to go to sit on the floor

*seconds later*
Cher Yanni: Children, I want you to sit on the floor now!
*it will usually take decadeSsSsS for all the children to hear the teacher’s instructions*

Cher Yanni: Child S, sits down!
Cher Yanni: Child S! SIT DOWN!
*gave up after few trys*

Cher Yanni Child S, come here!
Cher Yanni: CHILD S! COME HERE NOW!

*Child S walked slowly towards Teacher Yanni*
Cher Yanni: Child S, what happened to you? I called you so many times, ask you to sit down but you like cannot hear. You didn’t bring your ear out today? Did you bring your ear out?

Child S: *nod her head*
Cher Yanni: You said you got bring ear right then how come I call you so many times but you never hear!
Cher Yanni: *pointing to her ear* So Child S, what is this!
Child S: spoilt ear!
Cher Yanni: *flipped*

ps: this Child S in sCene #2 is the same child in sCeNe #1

sCeNe #3
Cher Yanni: Why the two of you run?
Child A: Child B run!
Cher Yanni: Child B, why you run?
Child B: because I love him
Cher Yanni: huh?!?!?!?!

sCeNe #4
Cher: Child J (boy) & Child P (Girl), why are the two of you holding hands?
*Child J & Child P shyly let go their hands*

Cher: Child P, you like Child J?
Child P: *smiling sweetly nodding her head*
Cher: Child J, you like Child P?
Child J: Yes!
Cher: Cher P, you want to bring Child J home?
Child P: *shake her head* No
Cher: Why?
Child P: My house got sister!
Cher: *confused* Okok! Child J, you want to bring Child P home?
Child J: *nod his head* Yes my my my mother say can!
Cher: Child P, why you like Child J?
Child P: *smile*
Cher: Child J, why you like Child P?
Child J: because she 5years old, I 5years old
Cher: Oh okok… Child P, so why you like Child J?
Child P: *smile sweetly*

sPeCiAlLy FoR ... ... S02 & E322!

Brothers & Sisters in S02 & E322!

Actually I did prepared my speech for you guys during the chalet but was too paiseh to take it out so here I am right now, to type it down cause I know few of you will read my blog! =)
Just want to take this time to say a big THANK YOU to all of you out there in S02 & E322. Though in 2005, I only have 6months with you guys but it has always been great!
Before I made a decision to cross over to JAMs cell group… seriously it is really not a easy decision to make especially when I have the thought that I wont be in the same cell group with you guys. But with God’s confirmation, I went over and thanks guys for your prayers and Jiayous… right here right now, I’m coping well in JAMs cell group- growing strong in/for Him! But no doubt about it… I miss you guys!

SIS IRIS! THANK YOU for everything… really EVERYTHING! =)
Under your leadership, I must admit that at times I may not be very obedient or teachable towards you but you never fail to overwhelm me with your care and your love! THANK YOU for loving me the way I am, despite what I have done. Seriously, I’m not afraid to say it out because I know that both of us have overcome it together! =)
So happy to be able to “clear” every misunderstanding with you! Last but not least, though I may not be in S02 but for sure one thing- you will always be the LEADER in my life! I love you, Sis Iris! I always feel so loved by you everytime I see you!

CUIQI! =) THANK YOU for everything! You have been an awesome friend! Thank you for always been there, be it in msn or call or sms… you’re always there when I needed a listening ear! Thank you for all the advices, all the “waking up”, all the Jiayous!
You don’t know how BIG a difference you have made in my life … do you? =) You know… I seldom share my problem out, always to God of course. You’re the person who I will feel comfortable in pouring out my problems too. THANK YOU!

YAJING, YUNYUN & SHIHUI! I MISS YOU LADIES! =)
You sisters are the best sisters I can ever wish for … and of course I really thank God for YOU! Really miss fellowshipping with you ladies!
You know… each time I see you sisters at Expo, I can’t help but to “run” to you all. Thank you for being a great sister, a great friend to me all this while!

CHRIS, TRICIA, LIHONG, KAREN, GUIYI!
You sisters are simply awesome! THANK YOU for great friendship & a great members-ship in the year 2005! I really appreciate ALL of you! =)

BRO JINZHI, BRO GLENN, BRO YIWEI, BRO ZHENHONG, BRO DANNY!
THANK YOU for being a great brother to me! =) You brothers are the BEST!

TO ALL OF YOU in S02 & E322!
Yanni love you all! =)
Really appreciate all your thoughts… you guys never failed to invite me to your cg outing, your cg dinner, your cg birthday dinner & even your cg chalet, THANK YOU!
All this thoughts really made me very kandong and really feel super loved by all of you!

...yEaR 2005...

Been wanting to blog about this... finally us up! =)
As I looked back to 2005 … there are many things I want to thank God for:

1st in the area of my spiritual life
~~ Don’t know how to describe in words… but is just awesome! My walk with God in 2005 was verrrry different from the past few years! Breakthrough in my walk with Him! =)

2nd in the area of cell group
~~ Being in the normal cell group for so many years… is indeed a challenge to cross over to ministry cell group. There bound to be fear- mental & spiritual fear! I have to decide whether I want to take the step of faith to step out of my comfort zone! Also especially when I have the thought that I won’t be in the same cell group with my brothers/sisters in S02 & E322 (they are the ones who I feel comfortable and myself when I’m with them), it was even a tougher decision.
But with the confirmation and grace from God, the support from Sis Iris & the opened arms of Sis Lily… I crossed over officially in the month of May! Really thank God for the opportunity as well as the faith!

3rd in the area of my ministry
~~ Breakthrough in W5 attendance! Want to thank God for the brand new friendsSsS that God has added to w5 in 2005. within a few months!

Bryant– 10^th April
Wanjun– 26^th June
Benghock– 4^th Sept
Malcom– 18^th Sept
Tingting- 9^th Oct
Jonathon- 23^rd Oct
Ian- 27^th Nov
WingYew- 11^th Dec

LOOK at the dates that all this new friends were added to w5, it was so amazing! I can’t believe it when I write out too. Never in my service to w5 have I ever encountered this before! Thank God for them, not only they came but they stay on and now, most of them are faithfully coming every week!

~~ Thank God for the opportunities to try out different JAMs service segments! Not only I get to do cheer, games, announcement, birthday celebration… I was given to try PRAISE! And the one that I least expected I will be asked to do: OFFERING! Really really thank God that each time when I’m asked to do offering, never once I don’t have ‘sermon’ to preach. Everytime God will always give me a word. Like for the past 4weeks continually, duty roster for service I am to do offering … thank God I never run out of “sermon”.

4th in the area of work
~~ 2005 may not be easy/happy for me in school but thank God for the strength to carry through. Of course thank God for the favor- many times, there have been conflicts after conflicts between my colleagues but really thank God, never once I have any conflicts or argument with any of them or they against me.

5th in the area of friendship
~~ My Kakis!
We can say we experienced multiplication? It started with 3- Rick, Winnie & I but now we are like 10 in strength. In 2005 when our JAMs service is still Sunday 4pm- without fail, every week after our busing, we will all come from different places to meet up for dinner where we will fellowship till rather late before we leave home.
In 2005… we also have our birthday marathon and each of us have a memorable birthday celebration by Mr. Mastermind & the rest of the kakis. A lot of people used to say that ministry workers’ friendship are usually hi-and-bye cause only get to meet up during our ministry time. But I guess this is not true for us- this group of kakis who I usually hanged out with, they are ones who I really thank God for! They truly have made a difference in my life!

testimony!!!!!

Few days ago I was on my friend’s car, everything was okay UNTIL suddenly he lost control of his sterling wheel and the next moment, the car was going left and right left and right (don’t know how to describe). It was rather scary as I was at the front seat so I can actually see him swirling his sterling wheel left and right vigorously and seeing the car losing control right infront of my eyes! [due to the slippery road and the sudden change of lane]
Thank God my friend managed to step his brake on time before we hit the road divider. But I think the most amazing thing is when finally the car comes to its stationary position, the car’s side was facing the incoming traffic. I immediately looked to my left and really thank God that at the point there was no incoming vehicles … though there was a bus coming on our lane but it was meters away and seeing us in that position, the bus actually managed to slow down.
WOWOWOWOW … in my entire life, this is my 1st time experiencing such thing! Really thank God for His hands of protection that is on us! More than the car being safe from “external injury”, I think is amazing to see us still “alive” as actually the route that we traveling on are usually heavy in traffic, every week when I go through there to my JAMs busing, there is always many cars but for that time to have not many cars, it was really thank God. And when the car comes to its stationary position, I am actually nearer to the incoming traffic so if the bus were to come speeding, I think … … … … …

drama queen

Miss Wong, after suspection from JAMs for 3weeks … finally she made her appearance this week. All was okay UNTIL dismissal time, she made her way to the toilet and the next moment she was squatting on the floor outside the toilet, with her head covered. Immediately I “smell” something fishy, I know she going to start her “drama”!

Miss Wong’s drama business started 3weeks ago …
1st scene (Sun A) – she hid herself behind the curtain in the hall and REFUSED to come out despite the teachers using soft or hard approach. Then on the bus, she continues her drama by singing super loudly a song that nobody understands, she even attempt to beat and bite herself … all that she did, creates discomforts to the students around her and in the whole bus’ atmosphere.

2nd scene (following Sun) – she was found in the toilet, sitting on the floor, crying super terribly. She REFUSED to open the door … the more we soft-talk her, the more loudly she cry. And of course her favourite weapon- beat and bites herself. Finally we got the cleaner to climb and unlock the door. With us inside, she still didn’t stop and REFUSED to leave with us. So without any choice, a JAMs security went in and after struggles, he managed to carry her into the lift (actually she is not that small size and that day she was wearing super soft texture clothes so challenging to carry her).
Even inside the lift, she didn’t stop … she started to roll on the floor, bang her head against the floor and continues crying non-stop. Interesting thing is at once, she actually stopped and peep at us as we stopped coaxing or talking to her, then she continues. For her image, we didn’t want to carry her out so we got a wheelchair … it was tough carrying her onto it and keeping her there. Finally she is being carried up on the bus, still crying with her head covered. Minutes later, she was okay already.
I guess the most challenging battle is when on the bus, shortly after, she said “I love you, Teacher Yanni” … I have to bite my lip, control my anger and replied her SWEETLY, “I love you too!” Argghhhhh

3rd scene (following Sun) – I purposely observe her secretly as I know her drama will start during dismissal. First she was on the chair then she went to the floor and uses the stage as table to do her stuff then she went back to her chair again and DRAMA STARTED.
She used her jacket to cover her face and despite friends and teacher going to her, she REFUSED to open up. The next thing … she slide herself from chair to floor and begins mopping the floor – she rolled herself all over, back and forth (believe me! she rolled!), she bang her head against the floor, she threw her slippers, she threw her bag. I didn’t go to coax her because I know once she starts, it will take “decades” for her to stop. When all the students left the hall already, she is still on the floor, rolling and with her face covered with her hands. One teacher went to her, soft-talk and even prayed together with her … no use! Then finally many female teachers and male security came, soft-talk and hard-approach … no use!
A wheelchair was brought in, we had tough times getting her on chair, perhaps cause security is guy then student is girl so they are quite limited too as she will twist and turn when the security lift her up. Finally we got her on the wheelchair, she was rather calm at once- even can stop us while she put on her hair clips back nicely … then continues. And before we are on time to stop her, she slide herself down from the wheelchair to floor again. The drama continues and continues … for at least an 1 hour before she decided is enough and get up and leave. I got to bring her back personally as my bus of students has left with another teacher.

Thinking that 3weeks suspection is enough since she likes to come JAMs. But I dont think so, this week she came, she also started her drama and even worse this time - she ran out of church to the block beside and does her drama there. With all this weeks of drama, it really show one thing- she trying to attract attention! She can cry cry then stop to peep at us to see are we looking at her a not then continues, she can cry cry then stop to adjust her hair clips and even looking herself into the mirror in the hall. I visited her many times, she promised she wont do it again but each time, she breaks her promise. The 2nd Sunday where I alighted with her, to talk to the mum ... the mum asked her why she did all this ... guess her reply? - she said in chinese, "I fake fake cry one".
PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY … got to PRAY for her!

who say ??!!??!!

To some of my friends … they may think I don’t speak good English!
To some of my friends … they may think I live in “mountain” so everything to me is new!
To some of my friends … they may think I only have little knowledge about the things around and when I seem to know a little bit more, they are verrrrrrry stunned!

But to God … He doesn’t think the way my friends think about me! =)
I was reminded again by the Holy Spirit - “I must know who I am in Christ!” … others may say I am no good etc, but that’s not important! Because God won’t say and think like my friends … my God use ordinary people (like me =p) to do extraordinary thing!

What matters is not what others say/think about me but what God say about me!
I am who God say I am … not who my friends say/think I am!

Just a thought: Our mouth can be very powerful- words/comments that we made to our friend/s can either be life or death. The person who said it can meant it to be a joke but a joke must always have its limit. To me … I felt that a joke is not a joke when it cause hurt to someone!
Never carry too far with a joke, especially when your ‘joke’ goes too far to the extent of embarrassing the person you are ‘joking’ about feeling terrible cause you said it infront of many others! “Do to others what you want others to do to you”
Let’s us all be sensitive … and always be watchful/caution with the remarks we made.